I love receiving mail. I don’t know why, but I always get so excited to open the mailbox and see what’s inside. When I was younger my parents would say, “When you are older you won’t like getting mail because it is all bills”, but here I am 20ish years later and I still love receiving mail.
So, yesterday I was getting the mail as I do every day. When I opened up the mailbox I saw a larger than usual stack of envelopes and I was delighted. The top envelope was from my migraine specialist, who I began seeing 2 months ago. I figured that my test results from my recent MRI, MRA, and MRV were inside. I ripped the envelope open and it wasn’t my test results, it was a letter from my doctor.
A letter that explained that she was closing her practice in 15 days. 15 days?! I couldn’t believe it. I still can’t believe it. I am just getting started on this new journey and treatment. I am trying to stay positive. I am trying to see the silver lining. How is this possible that the person leading the charge on this and finding out new things about my chronic migraine is going to leave. Leave me. My heart is broken for myself and for all of the other migraine sufferers who rely on her.
Prior to middle school, I was seen by a neurologist, then I transitioned to seeing a migraine specialist and I found comfort in the fact that a doctor was so passionate about and dedicated to migraine sufferers. I knew she would talk to me about new studies and medicine. I knew she would be there for me when none of my rescue medicine worked and I was out of options at home. Then I moved and began seeing this new doctor 3 months ago. New things were brought up (I will write about this soon) and I was excited and grateful for a new perspective. But now that new perspective is gone and that is a HUGE bummer.
Last night I panicked. Today I am angry. I have to go pick up my medical records from her office tomorrow afternoon, and I will try to stay calm, cool and collected.
And now I am going to call my parents and tell them I officially hate getting the mail.
Has there been a time in your life when there has been a gap between your primary doctor for your migraines or chronic pain? How did you handle it?